UNWELL

( kan baik kalo ia selalu macam ni)

langit mendung lagi..
awan2 komulonimbus dok berarak lagi macam orang2 bengong yang berarak time sbb ISA haritu..Such a waste of time n effort..
kalo korang mau berkumpul beramai2 pegi masjid ke tilawah al-Quran lagi bagus dari dok melaung2 kat SOGO, Jalan TAR, and MAsjid Jamek.. Malu la bila ingat.. Kenapa Melayu senang diperkotak-katik macam tu..
eh.. dah termasuk bab politik lak..

hari ni dan semalam asyik ujan ja..
aku x berapa gemar la bila hujan ni.. sbb aku selalu akan dilanda MIgrain bila nak ujan.. kira macam aku boleh bagitau bila nak ujan.. sbb tetiap kali aku migrain teruk, bbrp minit pastu mesti ujan lebat..
bila ujan lak.. wajib la perangai malas aku menjadi2..
tambah2 bila migrain dtg.. lagi la aku x leh buat pape pun..
mmg ada positive correlation la hujan ngan migrain aku ni.. tapi bila bagitau Pn Noriah.. mesti dia cakap," mindset tu" ( aku sangat x suka teori ni)
tapi.. aku bukannya migrain bila dah ujan.. dari sebelum hujan tu turun lagi kepala aku dah berdenyut2 sakan macam orang dok main drum dalam kepala.

management + entrepreneurship + pediatric

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

banyaknya keja x abih lagi..
semalam kononnya nak stat buat semua.. tapi x jadi,sbb migrain datang lagi!!( macam tora datang lagi pulak)
last2 dok melepak je kat bilik..sambil tengok "i am Sam"-tapi teng0k vid boleh pulak.. bt keja x boleh .. macam2 alasan. ( saya rasa heroin dia sgtla comel.. jeles r)
bila la nak abih suma keja nih?

skrg.. si ujan tengah turn sikit2..( rain is falling..over you and me. sambil nyanyi lagu W-inds ft GD)
haisy... dah mai dah mood malas...

izza.. jia you ba!!!!

newsflash: i'm utterly speechless reading wat happen to daesung .. even if he do not have serious injury.. i'm sure that the post-accident trauma will be very terrible.. like what happen to me (which take about 2 years to subsides)..

Dae.. DAe.. please get well soon!!

BB wouldnt be the same without u!!
n we'll miss you!!

Yes i'm a nurse.. Is that wrong?

ever since school days.. i always dream of becoming an Interior designer, or a graphic designer, VIsual art artist, ...basically anything that is related with art.i'm sooooooo in love with art that i've gone against my father and take Art as my 12th SPM. subject ..
and gladly i did very well back then..
and i believe that I could make a living with my art skill.

then..i got accepted to matriculation. although i did get some other offers to take these Art related program in universities.. but i didn't accept it, because..I wanted to explore what does the matriculation life could offer me.. and anyway, i could still go for those courses after i finish matriculation.
and then.. after a year in matric during the time to choose the course i want to take in university later on, i found myself asking..,
"do i really want to do those art-related job?"

"can i get a satisfaction if i work those area?"

" what can i contribute to the society by working in that area'
and i found myself having these urge to help others.. that's was when i found my love for NURSING. and I'm qualified enough to take up other courses rather thanNUrsing.. but i choose to be in it. (of all 8 choices of courses-7 of em was filled with nursing courses)

my dad totally oppose of this decision.. even in my 2nd year.. he would still suggest me to change courses.. fearing that i have taken the wrong part.. ( because he knew i was always so keen on ART)
and i cant blame him for that..

I thought i have enough love and courage to take up this course.. To say that truth, there were time after I got in the the University that I wanted to quit because it was so hard to struggle with studies, other people's perception and my own expectation of myself . But it's not like I wanted to seriously quit, and I think that's something that everyone thinks at least once inside their heart.

During those stressful days,a lot of time.. i cried on the phone and told my parents about the stresses that i have while on this program. I hate being here so much..
I was betrayed, stabbed behind, lied upon here. Someone spread false rumors about me and that resulting in me being called many times by the lecturers and head of department. And there's once been an incident where my marks was given unjustly.. i just dont understand why that thing happens as it shouldn't been happening.. and my group have given our best to earn better marks.. BUt these things just happens right?
i never felt so depressed in my entire life..

Making thing worst, I always feel so downgraded by other when talking about my career path.When people around me ask about my Course.. and i answer back.. " i'm a nursing student" , the response wasn't always positive.
if at the first, before they know i'm a nurse-they would talk using a differnt kind of way..it would suddenly change to," owh.. a NUrse" like i just say something totally dumb..like i suddenly look dumb to them..

Nursing alone is hard.. and people like that keep making this job harder for us.. and what's wrong with that?
why must people look at me like i'm such a loser for choosing this path..
why must u talk to me like i'm so lower ranking than them.. like suddently i turn stupid just because they know that i'm a nurse.
why must people downgrade me for the path that i take..

Even in the working area.. We were always downgraded by other health care personnel.. Especially doctors. even when we are already working so hard..we were there by the patient side every shift, give them what they need. help them with whatever they ask us to. Nurse them..BUt then, we were always the last person to be appreciated in the ward. and the first to be blamed if something goes wrong..

and i'm tired of this..tired of being unappreciated..
tired of being perceived as stupid and incapable of doing anything right even when we got enough knowledge and skill.
tired as being seen as handmaiden to the doctors even when we have the same educationa level as them.. we are colleagues. not the doctor's servant.
Tired of being seen as soo lower ranking compared to our other working colleagues ( doctor, occupational therapy, Medical imaging ect2)..like getting the.. "oooo.. nurse" and the sudden silence after knowing who we are. or when what we said was the last to be heard just because they think they are superior to us.
i'm tired of all of this bureaucracy thing that keep us low in the eye of the public.

and i'm a degree level student.. but in Malaysia, there are still no posting placement for degree holder nurse to be in the clinical area that enable them to get their salary based on their educational level. we can't get the U41 ranking yet as that would mean that we are the same level as doctors and that was opposed by them ( but .. hello. we got our degree too) And we are no longer the supporter team. ( bukan kumpulan sokongan)..so we deserve to get U41. but then.. People and their Jealousy, close-mindedness and ignorance.. so now, even when i study more than the diploma level student..spend more time in school than them.. i would still receive the payment of a diploma nurse..
and worst, our prospect here in Malaysia isn't too bright as many private hospital also favor to take diploma nurse rather than degree holder nurse.

( my friends and i.. the first student batch taking degree in nursing after our Matriculation)

IT WASN'T EASY TO BE A NURSE.. THUS DON'T MAKE LIFE HARDER FOR US..

for my soon to be doctors friends.. please.. try to understand this. Doctors work on curing the patient and nurses works to nurse the patient..not to just hang around you,or be your handmaiden. We have our own job.. you have your own. We are not your handmaiden. so please.. as much as we respect your job.. please respect our too. but i totally apologize for the wrongdoing of some nurses who just take nursing as a job.. not career-those who did very careless and unprofessional work . but please, don't generalize us based on the wrong doing of others. We are changing. and I want to be one of the changing agent in this nursing profession.

And we are also human, so please respect us as human.. Don't go screaming around in the ward at the nurses for their wrongdoing. please be professional. lets us works with each other, instead of against each other.

i just love this quote " If there are people who are having problems with studies or related to sports....... It might sound harsh, but thinking that you're doing your best is not sufficient, is it? People around you are working even harder. Try harder and harder and if it's still impossible, then you're not suited for it. Suitable, and unsuitable is something that happens to everyone, so you just have to work hard at something else." It was py's who said this.. and i realize..i always feel like i have given my best in everything.. but there are always other people who are working even harder than me, thus i should go all out before i give upon this.. And i'm glad i did.

( i love him for his maturity and deep thinking regarding something. and at the same time manages to pull off that stupid goofy character that i love so much. thanks for the inspiring words..py!!)

after 3 years in the nursing courses.. meeting lots and lots of people. Experiencing enough bitterness.receiving lots of moral support and encouragement from both the patients and some doctors ( who are indeed very helpful and kind).. my own experience in clinical area..I think, Nursing is the best job on earth.
there is no other job that let us touch someones heart soo deeply and at the same time allows us to help them with their pain, suffering,sorrow,worries, uncertainties, loneliness, from the day they were sent to the ward until the day they are able to smile back.. and walk, and talk.., and later come to us with the biggest gift of all..
A "THANK YOU"from a patient that we have help all along..

and i think i want live everyday for things like that to happens..

to be able to help others as long as i can and aspire them to live their life.I

hope i can be a good nurse.. I hope i'll be able to change the current situation here in Malaysia and improve our image.God.. please help me to walk along these path.. and please make me able to do all that i aim to do..

(our practical in 2008.. I had wonderful time learning and experiencing many things here. the doctors are very helpful to teach us thing we don't know )

( in the obstetric and gynecology ward.. I think i had the best time of my life handling the babies here)

( our community program, in negeri sembilan.. It was so much fun and satisfaction to be able to get along with the society here)

i call it baeholic virus

korang dah dengar Gara gara go?
walaupun dah lama, aku still rasa lagu tu macam sangat fresh lagi.

taeyang.. stop making me fall in love with you everyday!!!!
dia punya suara sangat la sedap macam biasa..
boleh angau la macam ni.
dah la de bertambah cool n marcho dalam Video clip tu..
gembira gile aku bila utube dah diunblock kat cni.. mv 1st aku bukak mestila yang ni.
hahaha... saya gumbira dapat tengok youngbae saya. !!



rasanya dah beribu kali dah tengok MV ni.. tapi sbb aku dah tersangat suka suma part Bae nyanyi dalam lagu ni.. x kira la berapa kali pun.. nak tengok jugak.
kalau la baca buku pun boleh rajin macam ni.. mesti mak ayah aku bangga kan..
tapi nak buat macam mana, suma buku Nursing x da model korea langsung.. asyik omputeh ja.. not my taste la.
jadi, secara langsung membuatkan aku x minat sangat nak ngadap buku skrg..
kalaula Bae yang jadi lecturer aku.. aku mesti bleh dapat 4 flat kot semester ni.. heh..
x pun bae jadi model dalam buku anatomi.. Heaven~ ( dah mai dah perangai pervert dia)

sangat suka la bila tengok dia bt camni

( macam sangat marcho la)

atau macam ni

( de ngan GD sangat cumel la.. rasa macam jeles lak kat
GD sbb slalu ngan YoungBae.. gila betul la aku)

atau

bila dia main piano macam ni

Marcho gile dowh!!i totally melt!!
kenapakah dia sangat2 marveles, kakkoi, ensem, manly, comel, dan terer macam nih?

sebelum ni aku x penah suka pun lagu Usher, " u got it bad" ,neyo "so sick" ngan crist brown" with u"
tapi pas dia nyanyi 2 lagu ni.. terus 3-3 lagu ni jadi lagu wajib aku bila pegi karaoke.. ( suka le 2.. sambil berangan nyanyi mcm young bae. nasib baik nisa ngan nina x tau sal hal ni)
Bae.. marry me!!ok..ok.. aku tau aku dah gila ngan dia sangat time ni.. haha ( kalau En yusub tau mesti dia geleng2 kepala. apa nak jadi ngan anak dia nan sorang nih)
atau ini tanda aku patut tido skrg.
dah kul 3. 17 pagi Izza woi..

dah la dari kul 12 tadi satu bunga pun x jadi lagi..
buat keja la woi!! banyak tempahan nih..

(ni la dia benda yang aku dok jual seminggu ni..
bunga aku buat sendiri.. tapi malam ni x jadi keja la nampaknya)
berminat?

kalau Bae yang bagi kat aku.. alangkah bahagianya!!!!

ok.. baik tido dari terus meraban kat cni.. ciao!

cerita 1 ogos

1 ogos..

hari yang sangat bermakna bagi orang2 yang tau maksudnya.. macam aku .. ( bengkeng gile sbb aku tau.. hehe)
Friendship day!!
teringat zaman kat sekolah dulu, kelabEnglish slalu untung banyak time ni sbb ramai orang beli coklat dorang bagi kat kawan2..
seronok betul tengok orang2 dapat coklat.. sambil tu dok tunggu2 jugak " bilala aku nak dapat pulak ni"
tapi aku x slalu dapat pun.. (dengan nada sedih2)
takpela.. sapelah diri ini huhu..

time ni la si senior2 yang popular macam kak Pah ngan drum major Band akan sangat "kembang" dan bangga sbb dorang la orang kaya coklat time musim friendship day ni..
nyesal aku x slalu mencapub time kat sekolah dulu..
kalo x, mesti aku glamer jugak.. ( walaupun mungkin x seglamer nabil raja lawak kan)

time2 friendship day ni jugak la tetiba2 ja dapat la mesej dari kawan2 yang setahun skali baru teringat, kawan2 yang slalu gadoh tapi tetiba jadi baik hari tu, dan kadang2 kawan2 yang aku x penah tau aku ada pun .
hai..
lawak plak bila ingat..
kenapa bila 1 ogos baru kita teringat kawan2 nan jauh dimata ( tapi kdg2 kwn2 yang dekat2 pun x ingat jugak pun)
kenapa mesti aku nak tunggu 1 ogos baru berani nak mesej2 ngan kawan2 lama..
sbb x da benda nak cakap ke?
mungkin la kot.
tapi apapun.. ingatan dari seseorang tu yang lebih bermakna kan..

kepada kawan2 aku dari zaman sekolah sampai skrg... terima kasih banyak sbb sudi berkawan ngan aku nan senget ni..
kalo x da korang, agaknya lagi senget la aku kot.. hoho.

adik aku slalu mengadu, "kak tu kalau kawan2 dia mintak apa2 pun suma dia bagi, bila Atun mintak benda memanjang x da la, x boleh la, tapi kalo kawan dia tu.. huh.. cepat tul. Bagi ja" ( ini kes DVD citer jepun atau DVD konsert Bigbang)

tak pun

" kak tu kalau Atun ajak keluar memanjang tak mau.. ngan kawan2 dia nak pulak"
( ayat2 x puas hati seorang adik yang kurang hasam..heh)

tapi.. bila ingat balik.. memang pun aku banyak kali melebihkan kawan2 aku dari adikku tu.
so.. x heranla dia slalu protes x puas ati..
tapi kadang2 salah dia jugak jugak.. apa suruh slalu gado ngan aku. hahaha

kalau diteliti balik sejarah kejadian ni( ayat.. x tahan..)
aku stat sangat rapat ngan kawan2 sepermainan, sepergaduhan dan sekuturambut ni lebih dari adik2 aku dari time kat sekolah rendah lagi..
adik aku penah sampai nak bermusuh ngan besfren aku time darjah 3 sbb aku lagi layan kawan aku dari dia ( budak nan sorang tu dulu mmg ganas sket.. tak tau nak kata pa la). tapi nsb bek x de pape jadi la.
pastu kat sekolah menengah.. time kat asma dulu.. aku la kaki balik lambat..
aku rasa aku layak digelar budak hostel jugak la sbb aku kul 6 ptg baru balik umah..
so... all that time pun aku ngan kawan2 aku jugak.
sbb tu . sampai skrg.. orang yang aku rasa paling rapat nagn aku selepas mak ayah adalah kwn2

dengan dorang la aku slalu ceriita masalah aku yang mak ayah aku pun x tau..
tolong dengar ketidak puashatiasan aku terhadap sistem birokrasi semasa ( ini sekarang)
tukang support kegilaan aku kat mamat2 jepun/korea
tukang backup bila aku kena marah
tukang marah time aku tak leh marah..( aku sayang la korang sbb korang lebih terasa sal hal Pn N* dulu tu.. sumpah.. aku x penah tau pun aku teraniaya begitu teruk kalau bukan sbb korang)
tukang sedih time aku tengah blur..
tukang angkat tangan nak paksa aku jadi debater ( aku dendam ngan korang sal hal ni.. jahat la wei buat aku mcm tu)
tukang support time aku cakap ntah hapa2 ntah time debate dulu.
tukang bagi pinjam CD, DVD..
tukang pinjam CD/dvd jugak ( sharing is caring kan)
agen2 penghasut aku suruh beli barang time sale ( tapi aku la slalu jadi penghasut orang len tu..haha)
jd penceramah x bertauliah time2 aku nak sesat..( kdg2 tukang bagi lagi sesat jugak)
jd cikgu tak berdaftar time nak exam ( yang ni aku terhutang budi sngat la)
jadi penyebar berita2 terkini time aku sangat blur ( banyak gosip lagi daribanda len)
tukang penyebar virus Bigbang ( ini specific kepada cik Aliaa)
tukang penyebar virus Karaoke ( inin pulak specific kat Nisa)
tukang kacau aku time tengah boring2 dalam kelas.(specific kepada Adib)
tkang bagitau lecturer kalau aku sakit.
mangsa2 time aku PMS ngan migrain.. ( sori byk2 wei)
mangsa2 dengar aku membebel..
mangsa2 yang terpaksa layan jugak lagu2 korea yang aku pasang
penjaga aku time aku demam/ sakit sepanjang idup aku kat hostel ni
-jadi pembekal panadol, air cap badak, air asam jawa dll ( Nina, Nisa..time kasih sebab risaukan aku time tu)
penghibur & penenang aku time aku sedih.. terutama time tok wan aku meninggal.. i was at my hardest time.. and thanks for understanding my condition by then.

macam2 la ertinya kawan2 kepada aku..
tapi yang pastinya.. korang la " my precious one" ( sambil nyanyi2 lagu precious one KAttun)

terima kasih untuk segalanya

just something to ponder upon..

i was waken up at 6 am to Fly fm's Pagi show discussion on the radio..( i love those 3 dJ's)
they are sooooooo... funny as always!!!
you really deserve to win the SHOUT award

i was taken by their discussion today.
" in the latest scientist discovery, men are expected to extinct in future"
then phat phabes said " women.. we are precious commodity.. i might rent myself "( haha.. he is so crazy)
Ben adds," we're so precious.. we might even stock market ourselves"
luckily there's Nadia to keep em on the ground..Go Nadia!!

i couldn't agree more with a caller's opinion..
" the world would still be the better place without men.. if men extinct, we could always duplicate their little asset and a recent research prove that the sperms can be reproduce in lab!!
and just look at the reason men extinct are their own behavior.. look at who are the largest community in the " pusat serenti", Jail and involve in Rempit.. it's men, right?so no wonder if they extinct" (U GO GIRL!! )
there's a lot of other arguments between them and their callers.
" in a world without men, it would be a very dark world.. who would change the light bulb then?the car tyres" ( just love this caller's opinion. . because it was so true to some extend to me)

ok.. i'm not here to summarize their whole argument. .

but just think.. what would a world without men be?
yes.. in some part.. sumtimes ( and almost all the times) men are a pain in the butt.
but i dont think my ideal world is a world without men.

yes.. i think women can live without men..but it feel like ...
it feel..

empty

why do we women even bother to wear makeup, fashionable sexy dress and expensive perfume if there are nobody to appreciate it?
why would women bother to keep her 0 size if all that she have to impress is only herself and her female team?
why would some female even try to act innocent and weak if there is nobody to protect them anyway.

its a pity if we did all that just to impress our kinds ( except if you r a lesbian.. that is)

if there is no man.. this world indeed will be a less happy world to me.
because...
because...

it'll be very weird listening to another female singing for another female's name
( ever notice that the are almost no songs with the title using a man's name)


and..

will BIG BANG exist then?
how bout SUPER JUNIOR?2pm? DBSQ? NEWS? L'arc-en-ciel? KATTUN? JJ LIN? SHINWA?Shinee? haruma? Jang geun Suk? ect2


and..

who will i fangirl then?


NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

this can't be happening!!!!

if there is no man in this world.. i think i'll just die of boredom ( dari zaman sekolah sampai ke universiti, asyik jumpa pompuan ja.. i noe very well this situation)


so.. lets just hope what the scientist predicted will not happens in near future.

( lets just hope the XY gen would still
last till my time ends.. lalala)

girls like boys..
Izzaki

p/s: do check out the PAgi show team.. i assure you, even in your most worst mood, u'll crack up listening to them..
PHAT PHABES, NADIA AND BEN..
u guys made my day everyday!!

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(promote ni!!aku patut dapat gaji la)

baru balik dari house kuarantin petang tadi..
sedih aku bila teringatkan kena cuti terpaksa ni..
saya x da kawan nak diajak keluar...

wooo...woo..
sedih giler aku cuti ni.
dah la mak ayah keja..
aku lak kena dok umah jadi gembala kucing..
Aku x suke dok umah sorang2.. x suke!!

last2, bila kawan2 aku balik kedah.. aku dah balik KL dah..
macam siot TUL nasib aku cuti nih. huhu..sedihla..

sbb cuti mengejut UiTM ni jugak.. cuti midsem kitaorang yang skali ngan raya dah ditarik..
waa... apekah ni..
minggu menguji kesabaran aku ke?
lagi2 la aku terasa nak nangis bb dah x leh bukak puasa kat umah bila x da cuti tu..
benci la situasi ni..
benci!!

kawan2.. aku rindu la korang!!!
bila nak boleh kuar lagi macam ni?

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kebaikan2 memakai sneakers

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... AKu x kan pergi dah Tesco Setia Alam dah pas ni. Takkan!!!

memang memusnahkan mood aku utk bershopping tul..!! dan membiolkan kepala otak aku sepanjang petang sebab kebengangan melampau.. ( nasib baik x kuar asap dari telinga je lagi)
nyampahnya!!!!!!!!

ape..aku nampak mcam orang yang x de duit sangat ke nak curi , " susu fernlead, yogurd, Sunquick, ngan planta.. "
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! geramnya ngan guard tu..

1st time aku terasa sangat bengang kat shopping complex slain dari time aku gadoh ngan adik aku kat Time square dulu. ..
encik guard... sy terasa macam nak maki kamu je sepanjang petang ni..
memang CISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS la kamu.

harini ada kelas management dari pagi sampai petang.. ( ok.. apa kepentingan cerita sal kelas lak ni)
ok.. 2 make long story short.... aku ngan kwn2 aku pegi la tesco Setia alam tu lepas kelas (menyebut nama tmpat 2 pun dah membengangkan aku balik). Sbb aku sedang dilanda inflasi, so aku x berniat la nak duduk dalam kedai 2 lama2. kang penuh satu troli aku angkut benda ntah hapa2 ntah yang tgh sale tym 2. so... aku pun kuar la dari kwsn tesco tuh dengan perasaan gumbira sambil nyanyi2 kecil lagu," Dirty cash" kerana berjaya menahan godaan Signboard " SALE" dan " PENGHABISAN STOK" kat situ.. Cayalah Izza.. heh.

tapi, pastu aku teringat aku terlupa beli berus lukisan.. ( sbb aku tertinggal berus aku kat umah.. sedih woo. )Sbb aku x leh idup tanpa benda2 seni ni.. ( walaupun x semestinya aku guna sgt pun). Aku dengan penuh tekad, masuk r balik dalam Tesco sambil memberitahu otak aku utk memfokus kepada berus lukisan semata2.

tapi x da yang memikat ati pun..

pastu, Nina ajak aku beli coklat yang disalekan.. SAja je ko Nina.. Aku tengah budget nih.." tapi kata 2 dalam ati je la-sbb x salah nak pamper diri skali skala kan..chewahh"
pas pilih makanan penggemuk yang diingini, Nina pegi bayar, (dia lg kaya, dia r g bayar..hehe wei.. aku utang dulu boleh..haha). aku pun keluar r dari kwsn tesco tu balik.

sedang aku keluar dari situ, ada la sorang mamat yang pakai baju biru yang berpangkat ,"Guard Tesco" yang berlagak kononnya dia sangat semat paki uniform 2 tetiba panggil aku.
CISSSSSSSSSSSSS.........aku bencila ingat kamu..
nasib baik aku x cam muka dia.. kalo x, aku musti akan balas dendam kat dia bila jumpa dia kat wad.. hahaha. (Gelak Evil. ) , x pun aku antar santau angin kat dia. heh. Padan muko.

aku pun dengan berlagak se"nyaman" mungkin pun p la kat si mamat 2.
Dalam Bahasa melayu yang agak lancar, dia suruh aku buka beg plastik aku"
tetiba je sibuk2 nak tengok apa yang aku beli.. siap mintak resit lagik..
sbb aku byk beli barang kat kedai len sama ( owh... aku still memegang teguh kpd budget tu lagi sebenarnya), so, lambat la sikit nak geledah suma poket seluar aku cari resit berikut ( aku pakai seluar 8 poket la wei..
yang si mamat, " aku-pulun-nak-tunjuk-aku-bt-keja" ni pulak dah cakap kat walkie talkie dia
" Aku dah tangkap sorang, kat pintu kuar"
aku macam nak maki dia dah tym tu..
apa kejadahnya pulak ni.. ( forgive my word)..x da bukti lagi dah tuduh aku bukan main.
nak sepak dia pun ada jugak time tu.. tapi aku x berani la sbb Chinese guy yang aku asyik usha tym bayar brg sblm 2 ada dkt2 situ. takut lak kang dia ingat aku ni gangster lak kan. Imej mau jaga beb..

pastu dia punya kawan.. ( aku agak manager ) dia dtg..
sama je perangai 2 ekor ni..
nasib baik aku dah jumpa balik resit aku tuh..
dah abih periksa benda2 aku, dia blah centu ja..
BLAH centu je..
dah r malukan aku depan orang orang yang dok membeli kat situ..( terutama kat En Chinese tu)
pastu tuduh aku mencuri lak..
pastu dah tau dia salah..
dia BLAH macam tu je..
macam dia x buat salah pape pun..

Memang CISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS dan s**l la dua kera tu!!
aku beli benda dari kedai korang jugak hapa..
aku customer dorang jugak hapa..
apa.. ingat aku ni miskin sangat ke nak curi benda2 murah mcm tu.. stakat susu, planta, sunquick..
HELLO
bodo la pencuri 2 nak curi benda2 tu..
S**L tul.
lagipun PTPTN aku penuh lagila.. apa kejadahnya aku nak curi benda lak?
mak ayah aku x penah ajar pun bt benda2 mcm 2.

bila dah termalu...sbb bt salah..
kot la nak minta maaf daripada customer 2..
x jugak pun..
biar je aku dok menahan malu kat situ..
sumpah aku cakap... kalau bukan sbb aku x mau kecoh2, aku dah sepak dah si guard ngan manager dia tu. ( elok2 aku pakai sneaker je hari ni, dapat bagi sorang se"das" sedap jugak ni)
bukan susah pun nak minta maaf
bukannya aku suruh dia melutut dpn aku mintak maaf
cuma cakap je, " cik, maafkan kami di atas salah paham tadi"
susah sgt ke?
ape.. kamu besar sangat ke sampai x leh mintak maaf?
hebat sangat ke kamu?
kalau customer x pegi kedai korang, korang dapat gaji ke?
kenapa nak bt customer centu?
lu pikirla sendiri..

Nina cakap sbb kat kwsn c2 ramai Indon..
so.. sbb ramai Indon sini suka curi2 kat situ, mestikah dia tahan sesapa je dia suka..tuduh org tu..
bodo la..
lagipun.. Aku ni ada muka macam orang Indon ke?
aku rasa muka aku still sama macam last time aku amik gambar IC.. Just dah jadi slim skit( nak bgtau jugak..hehe)
aku Warganegara Malaysia la..
x caya tengokIC la.. x caya jugak, tgk kad student x pun surat beranak aku.. kalo mintak no surat beranak aku pun aku boleh bagi suruh dia check.
Tolongla.. lelaki2 dan Ego mereka yang BODOH tu..
dah buat salah.. ngaku la..
Aku antar komplen kat Metro kang.. Padan muka korang kot..
Pastu boleh r aku gelak puas2 kat korang dua.. ( ye..aku tau aku jahat)

kalau aku salah.. aku x kisah kalo kena tegur, " cik, x leh bawak masuk plastik dalam ni"
tapi... x da signboard pape pun bagitau sal hal 2, dan yang si en-guard-nan-pulun 2 pun x da pun nak tahan aku sblm masuk bagitau sal tu..atau tolong ikatkan plastik aku tuh..
kat shopping cmplex len biasa je.. yang Jusco yang lagi besar dari dia pun x la Lorat camtu..
gila hapa tetiba tuduh orang.
cuba aku bt centu kat dorng ka..
x pun aku tengking dorang kat situ jugak.. aku nak tengok camna dorang nak buat..
mesti kata aku," kurang ajar" kan..
tapi orang yang terajar ni la yang buat perangai " BAEKKKK " punya. bagus la sangat perangai tu..

aku betul2 hangin la petang ni sal dua kera ni.. ( jap.. kera itu comel mcm Son Goku.. , x 2 ekor Swine ni) swine bunyinya macam sopan sikit kan..

pasal ni ja idup aku sepanjang petang sampai malam tadi dah jadi x best sangat.
aku duduk x kena, bangun x kena..
terbuat benda yang aku x nak buat..
terkata benda yang aku x terniat nak kata ( benda baik ni.. bukan benda jahat.. tapi aku baru sedar, aku x terniat pun nak bt perkara yang kononya baik tu.. )
terbad mood pada waktu x patut bad mood..

so.. moral of the story..
1.Jangan pergi membeli belah dah kat Tesco Setia Alam walaupun yang tu la tesco terdekat dengan sini.
2.dan pakai kasut sneaker bila pegi bershopping.. senang gerak, x sakit kaki dan juga amat sesuai untuk menendang kaki atau ***** si pengacau anda.
3. praktis tendangan berputar Jandi untuk dipraktukkan pada ketika anda terjumpa si guard yang kurang ajar macam yang disebut diatas.
4. dan, aku tersedar.. rupanya si encik chinese tu.. dia ada iras2 Mc Dreamy aku dulu.. ARgh.. tidak!!!! kenapa aku suka orang ngan pattern 2 ja.

kesimpulannya : Aku sangat anti dengan Tesco terbabit dan aku juga anti ngan En-guard yang kerek macam cerek.

kesimpulan yang tersimpul: x leh pegi tesco tu pun aku boleh idup la wei.. Ada lagi carrefore ngan kedai lain.. Boleh jalan la Tesco!!!

ending: camne pun.. aku still terasa nak mencarut kat si swine tu banyak2 dan sepak dia sampai pengsan.

kalo aku jumpa en Guard 2 dan member-in-crime dia tu.. aku cucuk dia gn syringe n needle sebesar2 alam. hahaha

jiwang seketika

time masih bersemangat utk bersenam.. rindulah kat senamrobik

sejarah le 2 sekarang

aku ingat aku dah cukup kuat nak berhadapan dengan orang tu..
rupanya 2 cuma angan2 aku je..
aku still sedih bila tengok dia..

aku still rasa sakit ati bila ternampak dia..

aku still rasa macam nak sepak diri sendiri sebab bila aku sayang kat orang, aku akan sangat sayang kat orang tu dan aku still marah diri sendiri sebab sayang dia..

bila teringat dia tetiba je rasa macam nak bukak lagu "haru-haru" pastu nangis puas2 sorang2 dalam bilik..
bila tengok gambar kitaorang yang belambak2 dalam computer aku, aku teringin nak padam...tapi satu pun aku x penah padam.
apa yang aku harap sebenarnya?


aku x mau benci dia..
tapi hati aku x dapat terima apa yang dah jadi sem lepas..
aku rasa aku menang dalam kekalahan..
ye.. masalah tu selesai.. kamu x mau kawan dengan aku, x pe.. aku pun patut bt macam tu kot..
tapi itu bukan kata ati aku yang sebenarnya.. kamu yang paksa aku buat begitu..
seronok sangatkah bila tengok aku sedih..


ntah la..
aku x suke sedih mengenang benda yang dah lepas..
tapi macam mana aku x mau pikir sal benda yang dah lepas tu kalau subjek 2 masih berada di sisi aku..tapi aku x leh bt pape jugak pasal hal tu..

dont ask me to choose between friendship...because i wouldn't schoose any of u, i'll sacrife myself in the end.
kalau korang lemas, dan aku terpaksa pilih salah sorang dari korang untuk dibawa naik bot yang hanya 2 orang boleh naik.. aku akan pilih utk selamatkan korang, biar aku yang mati lemas tu..
all of u r my priority..
aku sayang semua kawan2 aku.
memang r korang akan nampak macam aku akan melebihkan sesetgh orang yang aku rapat..
2 korang tengok dari sudut korang..
kenapa mesti nak rasa macam aku x peduli kamu padahal kamu ada kedudukan tinggi jugak dalam priority list aku.
i tried to be fair to all that i care..
tapi aku x penah tunjuk la betapa aku sangat sayang kat kawan 2.. tapi kwn2 len tau sal hal tu..
kenapa kamu kata aku x peduli kamu?

dan kamu dah memilih utk pergi ke haluan yang berbeza..
itu keputusan kamu..apa hak aku nak halang.
dah orang x nak, takkan kita nak terhegeh2 lagi. .
u got ur ego and i got mine..
but at least i know i have tried.. before i let go of this friendship.

may the forces be with you..

warning: kandungan laman web berikut tidak mengandungi apa2 elemen yang bersangkut paut dengan cerita star wars. jika anda mencari maklumat berkaitan Queen Amidala, Cik Wan Kenobi (abang wan keladi), atau Yoda, sila tekan butang kaler hijau kat bahagan kiri skrin( Back) atau tanda pangkah merah kat bahagian kanan kerana anda akan terkeciwa jika tidak berbuat demikian. eden dah posan yo.. x dongar jugok..lantak la engko.

kalo orang tanya kat aku.. pengalaman kat tempat mana paling best dan paling aku ingat.. aku mesti jawab kat Sek menengah.. Sungguh terbukti aku ni sorang yang sangat semangat sekolah. Sampai kalo ternampak Bas kaler merah hati yang ada logo Asma 2 aku x terkira gembiranya. lantak r orang nak kata apa kan..," macam budak2". Ala aku tau.. kamu jeles kan. tapi aku memang akui.. ," ye..saya memang sangat semangat sekolah". tapi ni bukan objektif utama aku nak post menda ni..back to the main point.

ini bukan perhimpunan agung UMNO atau konsert AKON

Sedang aku dok mengira hari2 nak balik Kl, datang ke Puncak Alam ni..sambil memikirkan taktik2 nak pura2 sakit sebab x mau balik, En Yusub bagitau sal pertandingan Band peringkat negeri Kdah. macam tau2 je dia aku nak buat2 sakit haritu.. So, plan 2 x jadi la sbb dia x mau bawak aku pegi kalo sakit lagi.. Terus ja jadi sihat tiba2 petang tu.

full house beb..

memang penuh la Stadium Sultan Abd Halim malam Rabu tu. kalau sapa mai lambat tu.. nasib malang r.. memang wajib berdiri dari awai sampai abih. Tapi sebab En Yusub kena bt rakaman video malam 2, walaupun aku pun golongan datang lmbat, boleh r duduk kat tempat VIP.. So, x kena "berdiri smpai nak tercabut kaki" quote dari orang yang kena berdiri.. jangan marah r Mas. ( ^.^)

aku dah kata.. purple itu best..

wajah2 lega orang yang berjaya mendapatkan tempat duduk di kawasan VIP.

sbb kitaorang x duduk di kawasan budak2 purple, ( sebab cik Adib x mau duduk sana)aku agak boring la sbb x leh lawan jerit ngan budak2 ASma len. Asal aku jerit nama SEk ngan tepuk tangan kuat2 je, orang kat depan aku dah tengok pelik2. Jeles la tu sbb dia x leh jerit sama. heh. Sambil EnYusub dok geleng2 kepala. ( 2 nasib baik la dia x tengok aku kat konsert Avril haritu.. haha) . Pertandingan ni x lengkap r kalo si budak2 Kolej ngan Asma x lawan sorak...lama dah x nampak aktiviti turun temurun ni.. ASma Chaiyok!!!!! budak2 keat Hwa pun sokong Asma.. BOOOOOOO untuk KOLEJ. !!

penyokong time SAS Band dah nak keluar dari stadium..korang memang gempak r

saringan.. persembahan bdk2 Keat Hwa.. yang kat belakang tu semua band yang bertanding

so.. the result.. DAh yang lawan pun 2 Sek ja, Asma ngan Kolej ( ayah aku kata Keat Hwa merajuk sbb result thn lepas).. So, xsusah nak jangka r sapa menang.* Bangga bangga*. HArap2 SAS BAnd menang National lagi... You make us proud!! WAY TO GO GIRLS!


ASMA CHAIYOK!!!!!!!

SAS BAND HWAITING!!!!!!

selamat hari ayah!!!