i'm soooo not happy!!!

shock!
hurt!!
dismayed!!
and most of all I"M HURT AND I"M HEART BROKEN!!

i totally feel like a doormat today.. Step upon, ignored and ridiculed..

i'm sorry that i am born with these weaknesses.. but i'm working hard to overcome this..
and u said that i didn't put any effort to do anything?"
dont..please don't EVER SAY THAT!!
you've just kill me with those words..

yes i'm not really that fit to be working with you.. but do u have to do that...
yes i'm stupid, clumsy and all.. but dont say things as if i didn't give enough effort to learn.. dont..

u'd better stab me than say those thing.. it's less painful than bearing the weight of your words..

gosh.. i'm so depress!!

hora yeah!!

the best post exam get away ever!!!

i know i have my fun for the week.. ( did u guys?)
our last paper for the semester ended last friday (13th.. same date bae releases his "wedding dress" song..yay.. more reason to celebrate)
and despises the fact that i spend most of the study week finishing up my clinical portfolio.. gladly i think i did very well back then.

oh yeah.. where were i..

for those who have been reading this rambling blog of mine.. u would know that i'm a fan of the Fly Fm's Pagi show.( ask nisa.. tetiap pagi mesti dok dengar aku gelak sorang2 dlm keadaan separuh tido dari kul 5pg smpai 9)
so.. it's their 4th anniversary last saturday... and what kind of fan would that made me if i didn't go kan..
dragging nina to go wit me.. and after losing our way to One Utama for an hour ( from PJ to damansara utama and back to PJ.. Haish..)
we've made it to OU after some painstaking effort to find parking lot.

( muka stress sbb sesat)

i dont really know when did the "party" really started.. but the night concert starts at 8.
it was already raining a bit when it started, make me wonder why everytime i went to a concert, it rains? ( Avril's concert also the same.. ujan..macam nakbagitau.. balik la woi!!)
the crowd rocks!! and the sound system just superb ( memangla.. dah duduk pun dkt2 ngan speaker dia.. maunya x superb)

frankly speaking, i hardly know any of the artists featured.. memangla kan.. lainla kalo ko bagi wonder girls ke. ss501 ke, 2pm ke, big bang ke.. aku conform akan beria-ia nakberhimpit di tengah2 crowd tu..haha. one thing 4 sure.. i only aim to take picture there..heh

( konsert konsert jugak..makan tu xleh tinggal punya.. kena kumpul tnaga beb..)

(the pagi show DJ.. (^.^)

( nadia, jules and hunny madu)

( waktu ni si Dj tu suruh kitaorang teka who's the next act 2 be on stage.. yang si mamat kat blkg aku asyik dok jerit, " rabbani.. Hijjaz" hahaha gila tul la )

finding for the day:


1.i think i'm in love with Yuna's voice sooooo very much.. yes i know the "dan sebenarnya" song.. and i dont quite like it.. but i'm totall swept away when she sang " deeper conversation". LOVE it so much!! and the song have been humming in my head since then.. hurm.. is it time for me to get back to the local music?

( ntah sapa la tuan empunya payung gerai tu.. aku sangat bengang la ngan manusia terbabit.. orang dtg bkn nak payung woi...agak2 r nak bwak payung tu)

( no superman?.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

2. Faizal tahir rocks dude!!. I always love his performance but seeing it live, it's even better. it's funny when he said, " i wiill not take off my shirt". during his performance.. haha.. bet he still remember the consequences of doin that until now.. ( but.. really, small matter la sal bkk baju tu.. * cough* unless it bae* cough* ( nosebleeds). he starts off with "bencinta", Oh boy.. u should seen how happy Nina and the Kueja was when he sang that.. Exsited abih.. then followed by 3 Mj's songs.. Then i'm the one who gets excited. haha.. Love the time when he and the other guitarists plays' to "beat it", " the guy in the mirror" and "who's bad."... they were totally awesome!!!!

3. i never knew much about 'disagree 'but i kinda know some of their song.. They were the first to start. love their opening where they mix the traditional malay's music with their song.. it really works!! and i must say.. i think i... l.. liike em too.

4. it was raining even heavier when "estranged " perform..I felt bad for them that most of the crowd ran off for shelter.. even us.. hehehe.. Nina wants to stay for bunkface performance.. but the rains gets heavier, plus, it is already 11 at that time. imagine, getting from damansara to puncak alam took almost 2 hour.. kalo x blik jugak.. nak kena tahan ngan pak cik guard?

( lali..lali.. ujan suda tulun..)

5. our plan to get out early so as not too get into traffic jam was totally wrong..!!!! WRONG!!!! We spend 1 hour and a half just trying to get out of the parking lot. weouh!! and what more frustrating than having to listen to bunkface in the car.. in the car.. NOOOOO.. i felt like crying out loud, we are still in the parking lot, " silly lilly and " situasi" was on.. the car wasn't moving a bit, and later they have firework.. AND WE ARE STILL IN THE PARKING LOT!! damn! i knew I should have stay until the end.. WE reach home at 1am. (T.T)

moral of the day:

kalo nak pegi memana tu.. niat musti baik.. kalo x, sesat r nanti.. betul x tipu.. Pegi semayang dulu, jngn nak tannguh smpai time dah sampai kat destinasi. Ini kisah sebenar ni...

kalo kena ujan. balik trus cpt2 g mandi.. kan nina kan.. Tu la.. orang dah pesan.. degil lagi. kan dah demam.

walaupun anda berpikir macam anda dah sangat pandai nak kuar cepat2 utk elak jam.. anda patut tau.. ada ramai lagi manusia pun ingat dorang je pikir keluar awal bleh elak jem.. jd, x da maknanya pemikiran tu sbb anda tersangkut dlm jem jugak akhirnya.

dan tolong jangan curi payung kedai mamak di tempat makan berhampiran anda dan bawak ia ke konsert terbuka macam ni.. anda menpunyai risiko tinggi untuk dibaling kasut atau slipar buruk oleh orang belakang anda yang bengang sbb x nampak pentas sbb anda.

kalo nakberebut hadiah yang dibaling daripentas.. jangan berangan la kalo anda berada 100 kaki dari pentas tu.. walaupn anda lompat inggi manapun, tangan anda ttp ketot untuk mencapai hadiah yang dibaling tu.. baik duduk diam2 kat blkg sudah.

apa2 pun terima kasih kpada penaja kenderaan pada haritu.. Cik nina.. Kamsahamida.. moga2 anda cpt sembuh demam. dan jugak kepada cik ilah, kueja, ema an dila sbb menyokong usaha nak meronggeng pada malam tu."jaamu dikenang sampai konsert sterusnya" chewah.. heh

MAJI DE?

Malaysia to adopt Japanese as the third language..

MAJI DE? aku macam nak tergelak pun ada bila baca berita ni semalam..
sbb dulu ni bila aku ngan Hazrina dok pakat2 belajar cakap jepun dalam kelas time form 3 ada je mata2 tengok kitaorang macam la kami ni alien.

pastu bila aku dengar lagu jepun je, ada je orangs sibuk2 tanya.. " korang dengar ni paham ke? " x pun mesti buat muka macam aku pelik.. Ye.. aku tersangat benci orang camni.. yang x leh trima org len yang x sama ngan dia.. " music is universal,the language of music is global.." x payah nak paham pun liriknya nak tau tu lagu sedih ke x.

tup2 pas kuar sekolah... orang2 yang menjakikan aku tu tetiba lak jadi peminat lagu2 jepun ni.. Teringin ja hati ni nak gelak kuat2 kat dorang tu..macam nak rewind balik je apa yang dorang dok kata tu. . tapi x sampai ati la..

pastu bila aku dah beralih ke bhasa len.. perkara sama jadi.. tapi pastu bila tetiba K-POP jadi trend..mereka2 tetiba mendeclare diri sbg pengikut K-POP lak.. mmg cheeese tul la golongan ni... i dun care bout the trend, i just do what i like and apparently, that thing become the trend soon after some time.. So don't judge me unless u r sure that u will not do the same thing as i did.. Sbb aku terasa macam nak tunjal je kepala dia pastu.

so pasni.. makin ramai r orang tau bahasa jepun kan.. dan dalam brita tu pun kata yang dorang akan mintak student malaysia yang balik dari studi kat jepun jadi tenaga pengajar bahasa tu..
Hehe.. IDA..... dah ada la peluang keja kamu ni.. tapi x leh goyang kaki sgt la.. haha

Sayangnya aku dah kuar sekolah dah.. Ruginya x leh blajar Bhs jepun macam budak2 ni dapat. Nak masuk Asma balik la.. lagipun dok U ni pun dah jadi macam sekolah jugak.. x terasa budaya Universiti langsung bila kena ngan org2 yang x paham sistem neh ( sori.. aku emo lagi sebenarnya)



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on the sunny side !!!

HAppy 22th CHOI SEUNG HYUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got my Enterpreneurship paper today.. but i cant help grinning like an idiot in the exam hall remembering that today is his birthday..

( who said that u can't speak with your eyes?..LOL)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hope to see more of your acting and rapping in the future.. ( ^.^)


( me at random.. waiting for inspiration to finish up my portfolio.. but still no idea come to mind..sooo.. this is what i do instead.. Yeay.. the first drawing for this semester..haha..it seem i have loose some skill already.. )

hurm.. kenapa stiap kali aku tulis sal Big bang mesti dalam English.. pelik2..

I dont care.e.e.e

i kinda anticipate her reaction..
yes i know it's my fault in the beginning.. but it was theirs too for doing everything at the last minute..
hiding behind her work..but still her words managed to kill me like always..
couldn't meet her eye..
couldn't even say anything..

i know u hate me..
don't worry I dont mind that at all
our feeling its mutual..

i know u r gonna act like that..
but why am I still emotional over the whole thing
and the truth is I DONT CARE..ee..ee.ee

terkenang semasa dulu..

( x da kaitan.. tapi saja nak bubuh jugak..=P)

korang pernah perasan x kat belakang plastik makanan macam keropok, coklat, ada maklumat sal zat makanan ngan kandungan makanan tu.( x perasan?... cepat pi check.. hapa la, makan lahap tul, ntah mkan ngan plastik dia skali hapa..)

Dulu2 time aku budak2 naif dan suci murni tanpa sebarang MSG, ak ngan adik2 aku slalu la beli chekedies neh.. slalu senyap2 ja la. ck timah x bagi makan punya. pastu tetiap kali makan mesti periksa dulu plastik mkanan tu.. tengok ada tulisan jawi ke tak kat plastik tu.. Dulu2 sblm blajar jawi, kami ingat semua yang bertulisan alif, ba, ta tu tu suma tulisan arab.. dalam kata len, doa la. pastu kalo mkanan tu ada tulisan jawi tu, baru kitaorng baca doa.kalo x da, baham camtu ja.pastu x leh buat main2 ngan plastik tu, berdosa oo kalo makan x abih,pastu apa lagi ntah..macam2 rule yang entah dari mana aku dapat pastu aku turunkan kat adik aku 2 eko tu.. haha. skrg bila tengok je plastik makanan aku mesti teringat benda tu. tai nasib baik la.. at least aku blajar r baca doa dulu sblm makan.

tapi sal hal tulisan jawi ni x beh lagi.. pada era yang sama, kalo tengok cerita hindustan, kadang2 ada dia tulis nama pelakon tu dalam tulisan arab. sma gak konsepnya bagi aku time tu.. " OOOO ada tulisan arab la.. kena baca do baru boleh tenggok cerita ni. "boleh kata tetiap cerita yang ada tulisan jawi je aku wajib baca doa.. doa apa..hentam jelah.. kdg2 doa tido, doa masuk toilet pun jadi jugak.asal baca doa dah.. Bila dipikir balik, sapa yang bagi ajaran sesat tu kat aku hah.. cepat ngaku!!

Bila baca doa tu pulak, tangan mesti rapat2, x leh tadah tangan kanan-kiri terbuka cam cara orang laki tadah tangan time doa..nanti pahala tu jatuh kat lantai. yang lawaknya, boleh pulak main aku cedok pahala hang -hang cedok pahala aku.. ( bt macam cedok pasir dari tangan orang len).. adeh.. bodo la sangat time tu.. aku mmg ingat pahala tu jatuh macam fairy dust(kaler keemasan dan shinning) pastu mmg kepit tangan kuat2 r time doa dan kawal gila2 pnya x bagi sepupu aku cedok pahala aku tu.. hahahah

aku tak tu la orang len, tapi satu lagi kesesatan aku time jahiliah tu... slalu ja kalo jaga tempat duduk, x mau bagi orang len duduk, mesti jerit kuat2 " ALIFF LAM LAM HA.. SAPA DUDUK BERDOSA" dah tu buat2 macam tulis kat kerusi tu. pastu yang lawaknya orang len pun x duduk r.. KDG2 kalo brebut benda2 len pun guna taktik sama.. aku ingat tradisi tu dah x da. tapi bila aku balik umah mak sedara aku, anak2 sedara aku buat benda yang sama.. EHHHH .. sapa dalangnya benda neh sbnarnya?

misteri ini terus kekal sbg misteri......


aku sbnarnya x a benda nak dicakap sangat pun.. tapi sbb nak memujuk ati dari mentensenkan diri terlebih sbb x bleh bkk fesbuk.. Intenet yang jeles ngan aku neh.. (jahaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttttttttt punya intenet!!)nyampah aku..

esok 1st paper.. Hwaiting!!!
oh.. dan wish me luck 4 all paper!!!!

P/s: kat kedah skrg suma billboard kena tulis jawi, bayangkan kalo aku still lagi terasa macam nak kena baca doa sebaik saja nampak benda bertulisan jawi.. camna la agaknya...hahaha

can you hear my voice?

i tried very hard not to post anything about BB for a while..
VERY HARD!!!
i was thinking to just ignore the net just to resist the urge to write about them.. ( seriously)

but the fangirl in me just couldn't resist the temptation to just blog about them..
so... here goes.. ( switch to full vipcologist maniac mood)

i have been listening and watching the " let me hear your voice " Mv repeatedly since it was released.
WHOA!!! the boys are getting better and better.. ( and my Bae nonetheless)
I personally think this song is their best Japanese song and also one of the best song they have recorded.. 5 star!!!!
I'M SO LOVIN IT!!

Am i being a little overly obsess when i say that YB's voice and Daesung's voice are the most appealing voices in this song.. ( i'm not thaaaaaaaaaaaaat obsess u know..just a tiny winy addicted to this 1 guy at the moment)

err..ok.. i admit.. i have a BAEHOOVEN VIRUS. I got stuck to Bae's voice everytime he sings and make me having the urge to repeat his part in the song.. It's crazy.. i know..



YB look super fine in the MV( as he always is) but damn..Top's cool-hot look caught most of my attention of Bae in the MV- so much for a die hard fan eh?( i promise next time i'll only look at you..LoL) love TOP's rapping part -wee.. another hand gesture to remember him by after the famous finger pointing (been secretly practicing doin that since yesterday until my sister caught me doing that..(!!!O) LOL

all in all... i'm so glad that they are back together again.. and Dae.. Fyuh.. That the same DAESUNG!!!Thank to the gift of perfectly trained doctors that treat him( and not forgetting the nurses of course.. Gee.. i wish i can be on the treatment team also..heh)

Great piece of work!!
i know u guys will not let us down!!!!

p/s : it's November already.. counting days for " wedding Dress" to be released!! YG is frying my mind with too much of him lately.. I cant think right right now..



hurm... i know i should return to Entrepreneurship note now..






wait....




HAvent I told u.. " CHUAYO!!!!!"


now...can u hear my Voice ?

mari ber"studor"

kembali ke Puncak Alam slepas seminggu mengabihkan Studi week ber"studor"( gabungan studi dan tidur- satu petua yang mujarab..percayalah.. nak testimoni? tgk je cik Nisa.. pengasas ajaran ni..hehehe) dan Stupor time ngadap buku nursing dan Enterpreneurship..
lantas en usup dan pn timahterpaksa mengambil langkah drastik memaksa aku balik ke sini utk studi.. waaaa.......... sedih.. kena halau balik sini.. dan keadaan aku x berubah pun..
studi? x da mood la.. heh.
borang ethical consideration utk research sem dpn yang menjerit2 nak diisi pun malas nak dibelek..
MALASNYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

chek nak dok kat umah jaaaaaaaa...huhuhu..