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Trough out our lives, we can never run away from problems ne. in every stage of live that we went through, there gonna be something that makes us troubled. At that time, our problem seem so big- we can’t even think of anything else except it , but as we grow up, and look back at the problem.. it suddenly become small and trivial..because we already know how to overcome them.

I remember , when I was 9 years old, getting to school late was a major problem to me.( laugh) There was one time that I came in 20 minutes late to school , and I was so worry that I would be scolded- I decided to skip school that day. But then, I couldn’t get back home or I’ll get a double scolding from my parents and grandparents, so I went hiding in a building near to the school. That building was left unused for quite some times and at the back of it was thick bushes and some said that they saw snakes there sometimes. I was so scared of being scolded that being in that kind of place seem a lot safer than surrendering and went to school. I stayed there for 3 to 4 hours before I heard someone coming near to that place. Panicked and scared, I went even further to the bushes!Someone calling my name from afar, I knew that I have been discovered as I forgot to hide my bike. Then, tired of hiding and scared of the surrounding , I guess I let myself be discovered. Back at home, my grandparents hug me so tightly as if I had been missing for years! I was expected scolding from them but that thing were left unsaid until now. Later only I discovered, my class teacher ask my parents regarding me not coming to school , but they know that I went to school( halfway anyway) so they suspect something bad had happened. They kinda held a “Searching” operation to find me in the village.. thinking of that back, why did I make that kind of decision back then. How come I see that as one very big problem, I should just go to school, then I wouldn’t miss the lesson for that day and my grandparent don’t have to be so worried over me.

During form 2 and 3, my major trouble was the ERT class teacher- during her sewing class especially. I am really weak and untalented in sewing that every time I tried to use the machine, something bad would happen to it (cries). It will always break down when I use it-am I cursed or what? My teacher at that time is one fierce teacher with a sharp eyes for students who are not doing their work nicely..which would be..ahem-ME. I would be called many times-until the point that I hate to hear my own name. (laugh) The class was on Thursday, thus during that day, I would pretend to be sick and not going to school on that day. My dad didn’t always fall for that trick so I would have to face that teacher even if I cry in front of him. Now, I still cant say that I can sew, because I still suck at using the machine- but I can proudly say that I can cook better than most of my friends due to that teacher’s guidance. And if asked who was the teacher that I look up to in school, her name is always there- Pn Rohana Luxaman. For your stern teaching and care- thank you very much mem.

( sometimes when i feel so sad and feel that i just had enough of the day..looking at the beautiful sky calms me down ..It make me think,Ahhh my problems are so small ne yet i fuss over it)

Trouble isn’t always something bad ne. Maybe at that time, it seem so big, you would feel hopeless and anxiety. But as time passed, you will see the beauty the trouble brought you. We learn many thing from conflict, trouble and failure than we do when we are calm, winning or having success. What you need is patience and believe that things will be better with God’s willing. When I have problems, I always called my parents and friends for a chat- I wouldn’t tell them I was troubled, but just speaking to the people who are close to me make the burden lighter. Telling them my problem and let them worry make me feel even worst, but laughing with them ease my heart. If that doesn’t do the trick, I would stuff myself , read the Quran, or listen to music while I sleeps. I don’t want to think too much about my problem ne. Only thinking about them and regrets over things that have happened wouldn’t do anything to improve your condition right.

Remember I used to have great problem when I have a quarrel with my roommate. I was so stressed by it I cried every night thinking of how hurt I was during that time. We stops contacting each other or even speak to each other- we grew so distance that I almost forget that we used to be so close before. Then, a year passed, one day she called me and oddly the joyfull feeling comes back and as if nothing ever happen, we chat happy for nearly an hour.( laugh)later I realize, during those quiet time, I learn to be a friend who think about other’s feeling more, be fair in the way I treat others and open up my circle of friendship more towards those that I seldom talk to. In the end, I made more friends than I used to, and discover a new me in the way. And I’m glad that it doesn’t have to end between me and her because eventhough I said that I was mad at her, deep down.. I still care about her a lot.

( the best cure of a broken heart- he laughter and concern of a friends)

My dear friend fail her paper and I know that she was feeling despair and sad over that thing. Saying that people would think she is a stupid person over that failure. .i wish I could hug her and calm her down .i know that feeling. When you see how other are achieving better than you while they didn’t even try as hard as you would seem unfair isn’t it? But life has it’s own way of showing us it’s beauty ne. I believe thing happen for a reason and I hope she will be able to find a good reason behind what happened to her, I pray that this incident would make her an even wsiser and stronger person!

My other friend was also troubled over something bad that was spread behind by someone. Having that kind of problem when we only have another 3 month to graduate would be so stressing ne. for the people who likes to spread rumors.. you are so LOW!! People have to work hard to build the thing that they achieve today, and if you cant reach to the same level, look at your self, did you strive as hard, do you think you can handle the pressure if you are in her place, can you do it differently if you are in her place?so why must you ruin it for her just because of jealousy or hate/ grudge . if you have grudge, until when do you want to take till you are satisfy? dendam tak bawa ke mana la.

( my fav spot of all time to let go off my trouble- the beach.. being there itself was so uplifting, and serene)

Life is too short to be worrying about trivial problem and trouble..ne. I hope I’ll be able to fill my life with happiness and shines for the people whom I nurse. For my dear friends..thank you so much for being there for me. Lets us all continue to experience life happily.