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Saturday, June 19, 2010

the answer i'm looking for all my life is this...



just read this from Iluvislam... and these is the complete answer to my worries for earlier post.....

i kinda know all these... i guess i forgot that when i was the one who were dealing with crisis...

Disclaimer: the above content are not mine... they are from that site...
just wanna share it here so that i will never forget them..



Kita selalu bertanya dan al-Quran telah menjawabnya.

Kita bertanya: Kenapa aku diuji?

Quran menjawab, "Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan."Kami telah beriman, sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar, dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang berdusta." (Surah al-Ankabut: 2-3)


Kita bertanya: Kenapa aku tidak dapat apa yang aku idam-idamkan?

Quran menjawab, "Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." (Surah al-Baqarah: 216)


Kita bertanya: Kenapa ujian seberat ini?

Quran menjawab, "Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya." (Surah al-Baqarah: 286)


Kita bertanya: Kenapa kita rasa kecewa?

Quran menjawab, "Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman."(Surah Ali Imran: 139)


Kita bertanya: Bagaimana harus aku menghadapinya?

Quran menjawab, "Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang, dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amat berat kecuali bagi orang-orang yang khusyuk." (Surah al-Baqarah: 45)


Kita bertanya: Kepada siapakah harus aku berharap?

Quran menjawab, "Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain daripadaNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakal." (Surah at-Taubah: 129)


Kita bertanya: Apa yang aku dapat daripada semua ujian ini?

Quran menjawab, "Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli daripada orang-orang mukmin, diri dan harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka." (Surah at-Taubah: 111)


Kita berkata: Aku sedih!

Quran menjawab, "Dan demikianlah keadaan hari-hari (kejayaan dan kesedihan) Kami pergilirkan di antara manusia (supaya menjadi pengajaran)." (Surah Ali Imran: 140)


Kita berkata: Aku tak tahan!

Quran menjawab, "...dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dengan rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir."(Surah Yusuf: 87)


Kita berkata: Sampai bilakah aku akan merana begini?

Quran menjawab, "Kerana sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan." (Surah al-Insyirah: 5-6)



Orang yang paling kuat sebenarnya adalah orang yang sabar. Tanpa kesabaran yang ditunjangi akal waras dan iman kental, kita pasti tidak dapat bangkit apabila menerima pukulan takdir. Walhal sesuatu bala itu juga nikmat buat kita, hambaNya. Tegal di sebalik musibah yang menimpa, jarang sekali kita mengintai hikmahnya.


Ayat Seribu Dinar

"Barang siapa yang bertakwa kepada Allah, nescaya Dia akan mengadakan baginya jalan keluar. Dan memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangkanya. Dan barang siapa yang bertawakal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan keperluannya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan yang dikehendakiNya. Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi tiap-tiap sesuatu." (Surah at-Talaq: 2-3)

Sumber: Dipetik daripada Curahan Cinta Niagara karya Maya Iris

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

hijau mata hitamku....


i'll be facing my licensing exam in a week time....
urgh..............
and i don't really feel i am ready to face this...
just got the result of the final xm last week... well, i have to say that.. Iza, u suck la... camna la bleh jatuh pointer nih?... hurm...
but no regret!! i know i have give my best ... errr ( except the paper part kot... sapa suroh malas lagi..)

overall.. my CGPA bleh tahan la.. but it is below what i have expect... sedey2..
some other have raise in their CGPA.... and some even got beyond what other achieve..
then.... datangla si setan nak menghasut bagi jeles kat org len...

i hate myself when i began to compare myself to other... because I know i could never win this battle if i keep looking at myself in other people's reflection...
i know... things happen 4 a reason... but sometimes cant help but to ask things like.. ,"why didn't I got what she/he got when i have strive even harder than em?"
or
" this is not fair!!!!!! Why did she get everything that i dream of achieving while i don't? "
or
" why wasn't i gifted with genius/photographic mind like her? why do i have to "suffer" to get to the level she so easily obtain"
that kind of negative feeling ..
i hate comparison.. really hate it!!!
even when i was on the better site, i cant shake off feeling not so good when i know people were comparing me with so and so..

but at the same time, cant run from it.. kan?
from...
comparing class achievement during xm and test
to ..
comparing who got the highest and lowest(dapat teruk.. nak compare sapa lagi teruk..
dapat elok pun nak banding sapa plg elok... )
to..
who got job first
to ..
who got the best working place
to..
who got the largest salary..
ect2
x habis2 kan...

camtu.. bilala baru nak menang... asyik terasa inadequate compared to someone else.. and that lead to feeling demotivated.. sungguh demotivated..

this is pathetic!!!

padahalnya... kalo suma org dapat benda yang sama ja.. then.. everybody's fate is standardized ke? I have different goal than that person i envy.. but learning that she is getting to her goal even faster than me make me feel so left out..
feel like i haven't been moving from the same place while she is sooo going places with her shinning wings...
i feel like a loser....

This SUCK!!!!






Saturday, June 12, 2010

KARMA

ok... tetiba teringat kat cikgu Rosli bila sebut karma ni... sbb penah jumpa dalam buku sejarah yang dah tinggal sejarah sejak abis SPM..
tapi aku x terniat nak cakap sal cikgu Rosli yang dikhabarkan nak dapat menantu baru nanti.. Tahniah la cikgu.. wlaupun saya x dundng pun... ( dgn nada sedih) saya wish anak ckgu jodohnya panjang le hendaknya..

ok.. tinggalkan crita cikgu rosli tu..

skrg.. back to the main business..ecece..

sblm aku suka-suki je bg aku pya definisi karma ni.. aku google dulu la word ni... sblm memberi ajaran sesat lak kan...
kata encik wikipedia
"Karma' is an Indian religious concept in contradistinction to 'faith' espoused by Abrahamic religions (Judaism, Christianity, and Islam), which view all human dramas as the will of God as opposed to present - and past - life actions"
aku x yah translate la kan... sbb aku slalu tulis english korang bleh pun baca kan.. lagipun.. aku pun x paham sgt pekebendanya la dorang tulis tu.. hehe.* sambil buka kamus*


ok... wlau apapun yang encik wiki kate... aku nak mendifinisikan Karma ni macam What goes around come around la kan. kalo anda buat jahat kat orang.. korang inagt x tertangkap tu dah cukup hebat la.. tapi jangan ingat korang akan terlepas selamanya.. ada balasannya.. Bak kate pepatah," sepandai2 tupai melompat, akhirnya x berjaya masuk SUKMA jugak".. huh..macam pelik jeh.. apa korang rasa? aku rasa fresh oren (PERHATIAN: jgn guna peribahasa ni dalam karangan SPM korang..pihak kami x bertanggungjawab kalo anda kena mengulang subjek BM dalam SpM anda)

mak aku pulak kate," skrg kalo bt jahat, x yah tunggu nak kena time dah mati, kat dunia pun dah dapat dah" . x caye....? lantak r.. tapi aku percaya benda ni..

aku penah post something sal "kawan " yang bt benda salah, tapi nak jugak org puas ati ngan dia kan.. Ni kira macam lebey kurang la skrip asalnya.. just orang len la.. tapi kes lebih krg sama la. sesapa x puas ati aku ngunkit balik benda ni... bagitau siap2 .. sbb aku nak crita jugak.. Tis is my Blog kan.. and dat story involve me also.

so... dat someone membuat something yang mengsaikokan aku slama 3 minggu aku practikal kat satu wad ni.. Terasa teraniaya? mmg sgt2 trasa dianiaya, marah dan mcm nak nyumpah2 dia kalo aku jumpa dia..Because my team's reputation was torn bcos of her..( sila rujuk entry sblm ni yg menquote word"knapa grup kamu malas ?" ) Old story u may say... but please realize, bad rumors travel fast and they remains longer than any good news. Org bleh bagi seribu keburukan kita dan kosong kebaikan kita..bcause some pple like to think that they are better than other people... Thus there is a need to bring other down.




that person got off with her deed...and i got nothing to say about that.. Her luck kan.. but i think Tuhan tu sgt adil.. macam Karma.. wat u did, u get back. bukan nak bgembira atas kesedihan dia, aku pun bersimpati atas apa jd kat dia.. tapi deepdown.. aku terpikir satu word ja.. KARMA. she got her punishment 4 wat she did earlier n it was exactly wat she did to us. hurm... fullstop.



so, the point here is that, beringat la sblm nak aniaya orang.. Tuhan tu Maha Melihat dan Maha Mengetahui. Aku percaya, if u did good to other, other will also do good to you.. Mother theresa gives her life to people, she may not be rich with money from other, but she's rich with love. sampai skrg pun orang kenang dia.. and pray 4 her. u hurt other, u think other will love you kah? ( ditujukan kpd pn diktator.. ) . U say bad word to other, u think other will say good word about you? stop being delusional!!( macam sambungan emo last wek ja nih). OK... say watever, at least i know i'm not hypocrite and act as if I dont mind ( tune:beautiful monster-neyo).


oooh.. and when u talk abt other on ur blog... other people will also talk about u back...errrrr... WHOOPSIEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Tuesday, June 8, 2010

words...




i have a lot in mind to nag about... but when i really have the time to write something, the mood just went passing by and i end up updating nothing until yesterday..

and today...

really should be reading books for the nursing board exam... but seriously.. got no mood to even open up the books..

especially today

ok... what was i thinking just now.. oh! right.. WORDS

I think... the most powerful thing in the world that everybody have is words...
it can either lift you up or bring you down at a short time..
dont you agree?

when someone says words like, " well done" or " good job!!", it really does boost up my spirit a lot.. eventhough the things that i did was just something small. It's like , "yoshi..i'm gonna do better next time so that i can feel this happy" sort of feeling. it motivate you to do better and make one feel like what they are doing, regardless of how big or small it is worth it and appreciated.

but words like, " kamu x layak jadi so and so" atau, " you have no integrity" ( just bcause of some very trivial thing for God sake..) , atau" kalau kamu rasa kamu x suka ngan apa yg saya bt, kamu bleh kluar dr sini" atau, " kenapa grup kamu ni macam malas eh" ( pdhal kamu x rehat lgsung pun dr wad time practical..siap blik lmbat lg) atau.." budak tu mmg slalu mcm tu.. lambat pickup"( when you know you have try ur best to do things up to their standard.. and yang lawaknya, org yang dok ngata tu bt keja x betul pun..tapi perasan dia tu sgt hebat sbb dia dah keja) really make me feel so low..frustrated and sad.

it's not like i don't accept criticism .. but dont do it to the point the person u are criticizing are disgraced. if you want to teach, cant u just words that don't downgrade other. sbg senior, nak ajar junior.. mestikah nak kena ckp kasar utk pastikan msg kamu tu smpai kat jr kamu..? atau staff nurse nak ajar student nurse, mestikah malukan sorang student yang bt salah dpn orng lain supaya ajaran tu sampai..?" adakah penggunaan word BODOH, X LAYAK JD NURSE, LEMBAP tu memastikan student tu paham apa yang korang ajar? hebat sangatkah kamu nak melabel org lain yang terang berusaha utk bt yang terbaik dia bleh buat sbg org yang "BODOH, MALAS, lembap ect" terutamanya bila kamu sendiri xla sesempurna mana. sempurna sgtkah kamu untuk mengadili orang lain... I mean, who are you to judge other... you are not even perfect like the people you are judging, what make you so special that you can just simply go and label other just like that !!!!!


aku mmg tgh emo ngan sorang makhluk Tuhan paling perasan, narcissistic dan paling annoying pernah aku jumpa.. Belajar je tinggi2, tapi bebalnya aku x tau nak cakap apa dah. my mum and dad are both teachers,and as far as i know and experience with my own beloved teachers in Asma, teacher are strict, but they are soft at the same time and also always motivating their student to reach their goal.. Tapi makhluk Tuhan yang dikatakan ni, sebaliknya pula... when she should be helping student to deal with their prob, she created the problem.. When she should be encouraging students to study and strive to get the best of their job, she comes and destroy everyone's happiness and motivation with her stinking mouth and instead of encouraging us to love the profession, she's making us feel like escaping it even before we even enter it.. WTF... I dont really know what is her function in this place...!!!!! but everywhere she go, i smell TROUBLE, added with I-think-i'm- the-greatest-person-on-earth-and-everyone-must-bow-to-me attitude..
( what.... she doesn't smile at me when she sees me 10 meter away... off with her head!!)

And she must have think that she is always right!!! she don't even know you, and yet, just because you once did something that she doesn't like( like not accepting her not-so-useful-idea for an activity, or forgot to smile at her when u meet her, or use the wrong word to address her when u meet her by accident or not ) .. you will forever get the name as " hard-to-deal" or "troubled" student. And whenever she sees you.. watchout!! you should know that she'll always keep an eye on you..in case you did something wrong again. And yes, u are forever her target for scolding eventhough u really didn't do anything wrong!

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to keep on looking for others fault
Live must have been really boring for her ...

i weep for her loneliness and inability to live with peace with everyone
she must have an allergy for affection... that why she seek respect so much ( duh.. respect should be earn.. not forced upon)

i hope you live happily being hated by the whole fac... ( i really cant believe that there is anyone who like her... honestly... kalo ada tu... kira ajaib la)

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do it anyway...

“People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you.
Be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.
Create anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, will often be forgotten.
Do good anyway.
Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.
Give your best anyway.
In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.” – from Mother Teresa’s wall