words...

i have a lot in mind to nag about... but when i really have the time to write something, the mood just went passing by and i end up updating nothing until yesterday..

and today...

really should be reading books for the nursing board exam... but seriously.. got no mood to even open up the books..

especially today

ok... what was i thinking just now.. oh! right.. WORDS

I think... the most powerful thing in the world that everybody have is words...

it can either lift you up or bring you down at a short time..

dont you agree?

when someone says words like, " well done" or " good job!!", it really does boost up my spirit a lot.. eventhough the things that i did was just something small. It's like , "yoshi..i'm gonna do better next time so that i can feel this happy" sort of feeling. it motivate you to do better and make one feel like what they are doing, regardless of how big or small it is worth it and appreciated.

but words like, " kamu x layak jadi so and so" atau, " you have no integrity" ( just bcause of some very trivial thing for God sake..) , atau" kalau kamu rasa kamu x suka ngan apa yg saya bt, kamu bleh kluar dr sini" atau, " kenapa grup kamu ni macam malas eh" ( pdhal kamu x rehat lgsung pun dr wad time practical..siap blik lmbat lg) atau.." budak tu mmg slalu mcm tu.. lambat pickup"( when you know you have try ur best to do things up to their standard.. and yang lawaknya, org yang dok ngata tu bt keja x betul pun..tapi perasan dia tu sgt hebat sbb dia dah keja) really make me feel so low..frustrated and sad.

it's not like i don't accept criticism .. but dont do it to the point the person u are criticizing are disgraced. if you want to teach, cant u just words that don't downgrade other. sbg senior, nak ajar junior.. mestikah nak kena ckp kasar utk pastikan msg kamu tu smpai kat jr kamu..? atau staff nurse nak ajar student nurse, mestikah malukan sorang student yang bt salah dpn orng lain supaya ajaran tu sampai..?" adakah penggunaan word BODOH, X LAYAK JD NURSE, LEMBAP tu memastikan student tu paham apa yang korang ajar? hebat sangatkah kamu nak melabel org lain yang terang berusaha utk bt yang terbaik dia bleh buat sbg org yang "BODOH, MALAS, lembap ect" terutamanya bila kamu sendiri xla sesempurna mana. sempurna sgtkah kamu untuk mengadili orang lain... I mean, who are you to judge other... you are not even perfect like the people you are judging, what make you so special that you can just simply go and label other just like that !!!!!

aku mmg tgh emo ngan sorang makhluk Tuhan paling perasan, narcissistic dan paling annoying pernah aku jumpa.. Belajar je tinggi2, tapi bebalnya aku x tau nak cakap apa dah. my mum and dad are both teachers,and as far as i know and experience with my own beloved teachers in Asma, teacher are strict, but they are soft at the same time and also always motivating their student to reach their goal.. Tapi makhluk Tuhan yang dikatakan ni, sebaliknya pula... when she should be helping student to deal with their prob, she created the problem.. When she should be encouraging students to study and strive to get the best of their job, she comes and destroy everyone's happiness and motivation with her stinking mouth and instead of encouraging us to love the profession, she's making us feel like escaping it even before we even enter it.. WTF... I dont really know what is her function in this place...!!!!! but everywhere she go, i smell TROUBLE, added with I-think-i'm- the-greatest-person-on-earth-and-everyone-must-bow-to-me attitude..

( what.... she doesn't smile at me when she sees me 10 meter away... off with her head!!)

And she must have think that she is always right!!! she don't even know you, and yet, just because you once did something that she doesn't like( like not accepting her not-so-useful-idea for an activity, or forgot to smile at her when u meet her, or use the wrong word to address her when u meet her by accident or not ) .. you will forever get the name as " hard-to-deal" or "troubled" student. And whenever she sees you.. watchout!! you should know that she'll always keep an eye on you..in case you did something wrong again. And yes, u are forever her target for scolding eventhough u really didn't do anything wrong!

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to keep on looking for others fault

Live must have been really boring for her ...

i weep for her loneliness and inability to live with peace with everyone

she must have an allergy for affection... that why she seek respect so much ( duh.. respect should be earn.. not forced upon)

i hope you live happily being hated by the whole fac... ( i really cant believe that there is anyone who like her... honestly... kalo ada tu... kira ajaib la)

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